Arghhh

I'm so pisssed right now and need to vent! I'm supposed to get off at 7am after working a 12 hr shift. My relief is never, I repeat NEVER on time. So this morning I wasnt very surprised when she called at 0640 to say that she was running late. Apparently her late night partying has led her to some legal problems and she was involved in a fight that led to someone getting stabbed. She's being taken to the local police station for questioning and doesnt know how long they'll keep her.

Now I dont like to talk crap about people, but when you hold a professional license to provide care to sick and elderly people you should also be willing to be a model citizen. This includes not getting yourself involved in unethical activities after hours! Infact your ass should be home sleeping so you have the well rested mind ready to apply the critical thinking skills required of you at work.

But... Im not her supervisor. Who am I to complain?!

Thank You my blogger audience for hearing my roar :-P

Words can be more fierce than a Sword

Sometimes we dont realize the weight behind our words. After what happened Thursday, my Hero cancelled his own doctors appointments and tried getting out of work to stay and take care of me. While I really do appreciated the help and concern, It saddens me to think of my loved ones going through another ordeal with me getting sick again.

Ang was no help and just made me more emotional. While laying in bed together this morning, my Hero asked how I was feeling and I told him how much it bothers me to know that he and others are worried about me. In doing so, I started a huge disagreement that nearly ended our relationship. He was very upset and offended by my words. Did I not want him to care? Of course I do. I just dont want him to hurt. Instead of getting the intended message, he heard that I dont want him to take care of me and help me. If something happened to him, I obviously would support him, so why then wont I let him do the same for me?

I suppose it all comes down to not feeling vulnerable again, still scarred from my past or maybe a combination of it all. Nontheless after hours that felt like months apart and buckets of tears. We've decided we're gonna work on my fears, my doubts and most importantly my getting better.

Hunting Season's Over

Something happened yesterday, something life changing. While in the shower I suddenly collapsed. Thank God Im sleeping with an EMT who immediatly rushed to my aide. I dont know if its cardiac related or maybe my glucose being too low, I just know that the thought of dealing with another health crisis scares the crap out of me.

So... naturally I reached out to my best friend for advice and support. Instead I got something far different. Infact I got bullets thrown at me. I wont be returning to the range anytime soon. Im done with the attacks.

Gava

Another one?! No Way!

I'm happy for you, I really am. I just really wish it were me celebrating. I can only hope that one day I'll be in your swollen shoes.

Woo Hoo

Ok I know I promised I wouldn't blog about you babe, but I cant help but want to shout from the tallest building just how in love I am!

Signed and Sealed with a Kiss

Its official... as of 3:45 pm today, I'm officially divorced! Goodbye loser!