Thursday, January 21, 2010

Here i sit in an empty house, not even my house. I left my empty house to come to moms because with Hubby away till saturday, my place was just too lonely. Where's mom? Oh yeah she's working now. Mark? So is he. Joey and Ann? yep their gone too.

So... what do I do without the people I surround with my love all day? I was their dirty underwear! LOL

Have a good day ya'll!!!

Monday, January 18, 2010

I'm So Vexed

So just the other day I get an email from my ex husband trying to pin his personal and financial problems on me. Trying to intimidate me, he offers to make amends by my allowing him to claim the girls on his taxes this year.


Dude, your problems are all self inflicted! You wrote those bad checks, you refused to go to court, your the one who refuses to get a job and pay child support! Don't look to me for help while you turned your back on me and the kids and DON'T expect me to allow you to take more money from us!

That was the end of the conversation... so I thought. I decided to hurry and file my returns just in case he tried anyway. I filed my returns with the IRS on the very first day they allowed you to do so, only to discover he beat me to it. Dude actually had the nerve to file their social security numbers despite my refusing to allow him.

So... the money I expected to fund our vacation will instead be tied up and we can both look forward to audits now. Thanks alot Asshat!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Too Blessed to be Stressed

As the days pass, I become more and more pleased with the decisions I've made in life. I've learned not to dwell on things in the past and to instead appreciate things in my possession today. I wake up every morning beside a man I love more than I ever imagined possible, that loves my children and family as if they were his own. I end each day praying for another tomorrow.

Words can never express just how much he means to me, so I don't expect anyone else to understand the words that I write. Its for me, as is he.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Flying off into the sunset

Most goodbye's are merely farewell for now's, some however really are goodbye forever's. We've known this day would come for quite sometime now, but saying goodbye to someone who's meant so much to me just... just doesn't sit well.
What was he? A friend? A lover? While neither seems to fit appropriately, one things for sure. We shall be no more. We shared many personal common goals and allowed each other to be completely honest, sharing our deepest thoughts without fear or prejudice. We both know how hard its been being away from his kids for three years, and sometimes were willing to do things that might compromise our own happiness for the sake of them.
While we may not be certain of what the future brings, I realize that this is something we both need to do. Farewell my dear friend.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I'm trying to be strong Dad, I really am. But just like everything else... you taught me to hide my pain. I shouldve been there, I'm sorry. I miss you more than anything else in the world and nothing will ever take this pain away.
I'm trying my best to take care of Mom for you daddy, she missed you too. Its hard to believe we survived another holiday season without you.