Thursday, March 26, 2009


While shopping for a birthday present for Arriana two weeks ago I joked to Mom that I'd get her and Arriana both a puppy. Reluctant at first, I decided to take a spur of the moment trip to the pound. Arriana's proved to be responsible enough now, and mom well... she needs the companionship. I've pondered the idea for quite sometime and knew exactly what to look for, a small breed that would enjoy being treated like a big baby.

I'll never forget the look on my daughters face when I met her afterschool and told her of our taking a trip to the pound. This is something she's wanted since we left our home in FL. Soo.... Off we went.

At the shelter we met several breeds, but seemingly all were suffering with some type of illness. Our timing was rather late, they had an adoption fair in the days prior when the local news channels were announcing their rescuing 200+ dogs from a puppy mill in Tennessee. The 20 something dogs that were left behind were not adopted because families didn't want sick dogs. Some dogs had seizure disorders, others diabetes and heartworm. One small shaking Dauschund however was simply underweight for no apparent reason and feared strangers and children. The Vet in fact insisted he not be adopted by someone whom has children in their household.

If you know me well enough, you know my feelings about doctors and their suggestions. So... I took the dog for a test run. First in the play yard with me, then mom and the kids. He did remarkable. He was coming home with us! Of course since the shelter was reluctant, we insisted he would live alone with granny.

He layed on the girls laps in the back seat, still shaking and scared but quickly warmed up to them when they shared potato chips with him. Alas they decided to name him Chip. When Chip arrived in the house he quickly became another dog. The quiet, timid dog turned to this wild animal chasing moms cat everywhere. Having no social experience and being afraid of people certainly proved to be a challenge for me. I knew somehow I needed to gain his trust before I could begin to train him.

Now, two weeks later, the same dog that was nearly euthanized simply because no one would give him a chance, is living happily ever after. I wonder now if this dog is somehow a sign. God loves throwing things like this in my direction to ponder.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Secret Revealed?

I've spent weeks struggling, trying figure it out. Why though I physically see you standing in front of me, I still don't quite see you there anymore. I think I get it now... Or maybe just a piece of it. I was browsing PostSecret and found someones secret that makes me wonder. Is this whats they've done to you?

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Purest of Pain

Ang... I cant believe you dont know Son By Four?! Here's the English version:

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I surrender

I don't know how or where... but somehow know you'll lead me there.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Dont Forget

The girls and I enjoyed Camp Rock, which stars a talented young girl that I'd gladly let my kids admire, Demi Lovato. I just learned that she's released a new single and well... it struck a chord so I thought I'd post it. Hope you enjoy it too!

Demi Lovato - Don't Forget - Official Video (HQ)


Has every ER attending lost their mind? How can you comfortably put your life in the hands of a doctor that asks what you think he should do?!

I've fired my old doctor for the same reason, asking me for advice about my own and even other patients care. Doc... your the one with extensive education and experience. You make the decision!
Why not go with the usual routine: ECG, enzymes, and x-ray initially to rule out any acute coronary episode. If negative, lets check PT INR and D-Dimer for the presence of a thrombo-embolism. If all else fails... send me to CT and light me up like a glow worm.

So here I am radioactive, but happy to be home with my girls. Thank you Lord for another day!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Stock up

The only kinda love I need right now, requires AA batteries!

Guaranteed to never let me down... unless the batteries fail me of course.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Up to You

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Life's Lesson # 234:

When you fall off the bike, brush yourself off and try again.

Learning to ride a bike is alot like life. It scares the heck out of you, filling your head with thoughts of falling. If you don't give it a try however you'll never really know your full potential.

When Gabby fell yesterday while trying to learn to ride her "big girl" bike, it broke my heart. Although seeing my kids hurt probably does more damage to me than it does them, I knew I had to get her to try again. I wanna teach my daughters that its OK to fail. Sometimes despite our best effort, things still go wrong. If we learn to wipe away the dirt & tears and stay strong however, we'll do just fine.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Up to Me

"God determines who walks into your life.... its up to you to
decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Puro Dolor

I came across an old favorite song of mine. I really never related to the song, but still felt the strong emotion Angel Lopez put into it. He really is an awesome artist! Today though, It brought about a new meaning to me. I love it even more now.
I thought I'd share it with you briefly and as I searched youtube for a decent video. I remembered however just how many different variations there were to this song. There was the ballad, the salsa version as well as the English one. None however were as cool as my final choice.

Hope you enjoy!

Wednesday, March 04, 2009


Despite our efforts, somethings in life are beyond our control. I wake up every morning and thank God for another opportunity to share my love with my kids. When Arriana was born, I learned a new love. A love that couldn't be tarnished by anything the world may throw at me.

Next week my baby turns 12. Am I scared? Yes and no. I know I've given her everything she needs to grow into a responsible young lady. We still have our talks and for some reason she still thinks I'm cool. She has a relationship with me as strong, if not stronger, than the one I have with my mother. I pray that it remains that way always

So... where am I going with this?

I came to notice something else about her last night. My baby was on the phone with a guy friend (dare I call him a boyfriend) of hers for exactly 73 minutes yesterday. THAT scares the crap outta me! Boys are EVIL!!! LMAO

My baby's growing :(

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Give him all my love

The Fool

With a heart as full of love as mine, its hard to imagine the tough me on the streets of NYC. The white chick running into the bad neighborhoods when everyone's running away from the flying bullets. But that's just me... at work at least.

In my private life however I'm probably the softest of anyone you know. If I love you you'll know it. I'll admit I've made mistakes in my past, only caring about my own happiness, but I know better now. Or do I really?!

I feel like such a fool. You haven't called in weeks. You ignore my texts. You essentially are doing what I've done to others in the past. It was easier to ignore my problems than to deal with them. So you'd think I'd stop trying right?! Wrong. I stand here looking out the window hoping to see you even if just for a few seconds while you walk into the building. To know your alive and well. When my phone rings I run to it hoping its you. I lay in bed wondering if you paused for even one second to think of me.

I want so bad to go on with my life. I've never felt this way before and swore I'd never let it get to this. I'm absolutely certain I couldn't trust you with my heart. So why now does it lay in your hands?! I feel like such a fool.