Thursday, November 29, 2007

Birthday Drama

Ok It's official. I hate my birthday! It's full of disappointment and broken dreams. Obviously it didn't work out as well as I'd hoped. I'm a hopeless romantic that's been left feeling hopeless. Is it too much to ask for the whole package? A good heart, great sense of humor, honesty, strong sex drive and remembers birthdays?

I guess I was still in fairytale mode and hoped my prince charming would swoon me. I secretly wanted to walk in to work tonight and find flowers on my desk. I wanted a copy of Post Secret with a post-it saying the sender wished to his identity to remain a secret. I wanted him to ask me what I wanted so I can tell him... tell him that he's all I want. Him wrapped up in a bow for me to hold onto all night long.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Cant wait to die!

Wanna plan your death? Can you believe they actually sell casket's on! But the funniest part is reading the reviews!
Product Reviews
Overall Rating: Overall Rating 5 out of 5
Great Casket!!!, Nov 5, 2007 from Pine Bluff, AR
We buried Uncle Joe in this casket last Spring. You won't go wrong on this one. Beautiful ebony exterior, and luxurious velvet within. And roomy? Heck yes! Uncle Joe was not a small man, by any means. But we were able to fit him and three cases of Pabst Blue Ribbon (his favorite) into the casket without any problem whatsoever. In fact, I liked this casket so much, I just bought one for myself. Now, I can't wait to die!

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Happily Ever After

I don't normally write about movies here on my blog, but yesterday Ang and I took our little princesses to see Enchanted the movie. It's really been a while since any classic worthy material has been created by Disney. With the new age came new technology that made it easier to create and animate movies in a relatively short amount of time. In 2004 Disney closed their animation studios in Florida leaving more than 250 animators without work. Since then, I cant recall seeing a single "old fashioned" animated movie created by Disney. I could be wrong, remember I dont get out very often. Nonetheless, the creators of Enchanted found a rather brilliant way to incorporate good old fashioned animation with tangible warm blooded characters.

not only enchanted me with the pretty colors on the big screen, but more importantly fed my need for a romantic tale. I wont go too far into details but I definatly recommend anyone with a thirst for romance and happy endings see it. It's so easy for us to get caught up in the craziness of the world today and want to protect our feelings. We sorta put up this invisible barrier not wanting to grant anyone access to our hearts. Our fear of heartache and need for protection prevents us from falling into a G rated fairytale love.

One quote in particular stands out in my mind though. At one point the evil witch attempts to prevent the princess from marrying the prince and throws her into a dark hole where she tells her she's going to a place where there are no "happily ever afters". Can you guess where she ends up? New York City! From what I've observed she's right. A place where divorce rates are steadily climbing and infidelity is more common than monogamy, not just locally but internationally. While I should realize that this is reality, I cant help but hold on to the hope that their all wrong and my prince will come rescue me too.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Giving Thanks

With today being Thanksgiving and all I've decided it's only appropriate to give thanks. Since there's really no cool way to roll between each, i'll use the bullet post idea.

Thank you:

  • For allowing me to overcome my personal illnesses with few complications.
  • For being able to spend another wonderful year with the ones I love.
  • For giving me the opportunity to challenge myself intellectually.
  • For the wonderful support network I've had all year long.
  • For having someone to share my heart with once again.
  • Being able to spend another year with the ones I love.

I used to be a very religious person and give thanks daily. Now however I find it rather easy to get distracted. Before you know it a holiday sneek's up on ya' and you realize its been an entire year since you've verbalized your gratitude.

Have a Happy Turkey Day!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Lil' Angels

Ask me what I love most about my job and I'll tell you saving lives. What I dislike the most however is watching helplessly as some lose their battle. Sometimes no matter how hard I pound on someone's chest or breath air into their lungs, there's just no fighting God's will.

Nothing touches my heart more than watching a child being taken from their parents. While some lose their battles with illnesses, others are mere victims of fate. I've never told anyone this before but my kids and I used to gather at a local sporting club on weekends to swim, but since Watchdog's tragedy we've neither gone to the pool nor the beach. Now I of all people should realize that we cant predict or prevent tragedy, but how do we deal when a child is stricken with something like cancer?

On Saturday my neighbor, little Samantha lost her battle with cancer. When most of her graduating kindergarten class were celebrating with parties and such, she was burying her mother whom lost her battle with a lifelong illness. The "miracle child" her grandma called her, stayed strong despite it all and strived through elementary school. Suddenly one day she was struck with a rather complicated illness which was later diagnosed as leukemia. Still as she endured daily chemo treatments she greeted me every morning with a smile as she left in her ambulette. As the days turned into months, she progressively worsened and could no longer walk. The only wheels she'd ever have under her feet again were that of her child sized wheel chair.

While most of my experience only allows me the chance to spend and hour or so at the most with these little angels, the impact they leave on the lives of those around them lasts a lifetime. I wont take another moment for granted. Tonight hug the ones you love a little tighter and hold them a little closer... for you may not have another opportunity.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007


The Lovers
The Lovers represent a powerful union and the harmony of opposites. It represents the combining of two elements to create an even greater entity. This card often represents the formation of a new relationship or the strengthening of a current one. Love can come your way at anytime. There are difficult decisions to be made and conflict may arise when temptation and desire overcome morals and ethics.

Chuck E Please

On our ride home from Chuck E Cheese with the girls, Ang and I had a conversation that I keep pondering. She mentioned how she'd never date another hispanic man because they all cheat. K, I don't know of one whom hasn't, but still wont give into my latin passion. Then later she mentioned that she's starting to come to the realization that all men cheat. Some get caught while other's don't. Some relationships end while others overcome or even support the swingers lifestyle.

Then I began asking myself, If I would've accepted this lifestyle, where would I be today? Would I still be in my 1/2 acre ranch home in Florida? Would I still be with one of the other otherwise decent guys that just couldn't stay faithful? Where exactly would I be and would I be happy? Sure having wild and passionate sex with a stranger sounds appealing, but call me old fashioned I'd rather it stay between the man I chose to spend my life with rather than someone else with some other communicable disease that I'd be bringing home to my family.

To be honest though, I really doubt now that I'd let something like a one time affair end a relationship with someone I really loved. Sure I'd be heart broken if I were on the receiving end, but if there was enough invested in the relationship, wouldn't it be worth saving?

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Bullets and Vibes

No you perv's, I'm not talking about the stuff you see in that Adam & Eve catalog. I'm sitting here staring at the blinking cursor, wanting to find something to motivate me to write today. Since I just cant decide on one topic, I'll adopt WatchDog's bullet post idea and throw together a bunch of random shit to tickle and tease you.

  • Dating as a single parent certainly has it's challenges, but dating a fellow single parent is about as easy as trying to end world hunger. We never get to see each other and it's really starting to get to me.
  • Thanksgiving is creeping up quickly. Along with that comes my birthday which I never look forward to. I'm always secretly hoping someone would do something spectacular and blow my world away, but instead find myself disappointed and blogging.
  • I've decided to try a weight loss regime again. I don't care if the guys I date think I look ok, I don't! I'm not one to ask for their approval anyways!
  • I need a vacation. Other than my brief stays in the CCU, I haven't taken time off for nearly 2 years.
  • I'm 5 months into my 6 month recovery stage from my last PE and still haven't seen an improvement in my lung function. In fact the past week or so I've seen a pretty significant decline. I need to call my DR, but need someone to remind me. Believe it or not, I don't always think about myself.
And that boys and girls was a brief synopsis of whats going through the mind of a mad woman this evening. Stick around, I'm hoping to use this method and the idea behind PostSecret to reveal some rather random and interesting facts about me.