Saturday, January 31, 2009

We Just Get It

I listen... but even without words, I hear you. Somehow helping you through your pain, brings about relief of my own. Helping you overcome depression too, somehow relieves my own.
You once told me God knew exactly what he was doing when he brought us together. I thank him everyday now for doing so.

I understand why your withdrawing, because I'm doing it too.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


Snow's fun to play in, but certainly not commuting. Unfortunately New Yorkers are stubborn and still try to go about their everyday business despite the hazardous road conditions.

That being said, there's a higher than usual need for superheros today and I'm being forced to put my cape on too.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Oh No not Again

6 days no snow, 6 days no slipping on my butt. 6 days without 911 calls for people that've induced massive MI's while shoveling the snow or others that've busted their butt's as I have.

Driving to work and seeing the dept of sanitation spreading salt on the roads though kinda makes me wonder. Do they know something I don't? I cant take another snow storm. Not now, wait till I'm in Florida next month... Please!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

S' Moore... YAY!

Friends fill a void in your heart. Help cleanse your soul and heal your wounds. Today I'm going to see a very special friend of mine that I'd consider a sister. My sister Moore.

One day God, quite literally, brought the wonder woman to my doorstep. In the months that followed we became inseparable as she even coached me through Gabby's birth. Looking back now, I went through some really tough times in Louisiana. Without her I doubt I'd be the strong person I am today. With my marriage slowly failing and nearly loosing my daughter, Michelle stood by me as our husband's were often away serving our country.

Being an Army wife isn't as glamorous as Lifetime makes it seem, but the bond that us spouses share is stronger than any I've come to know. Our time together seemed short lived, but I pray the ties between us will carry us forever.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

'Miracle on the Hudson'

God has a plan for every single one of us. Whether we choose to acknowledge it or ignore it is solely our choice. If you've ever doubted his will before then I seriously hope the events of US Airways Flight 1549 touched your heart and made you reconsider.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

No Thanks

Today's January 15th, the day I was supposed to meet with my academic counselor at BMCC to discuss my schedule for the spring semester. Instead, I'm skipping out. It's not what I want, just something I thought I'd feel comfortable doing.

I need to step out of this comfort zone and live my dreams. Stop making poor choices that make me happy today, and instead look towards tomorrow.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


I'm not gonna give you the speech about how much I love music again. Instead just gonna post something a friend put me onto:

Someone - Musiq Soulchild

I never wanted a woman that wanted
Me for my name or material things
I always hope for a woman that's so sure, emotionally secure
With spiritual faith
A woman that I can trust with all of my secrets
And even listen to all of my issues
A woman who never judge
Me or how I was
She deals with me strictly through love

Someone who will put up with the things
Loving me can bring
But still be there to see us through
Someone who would put up
With the strange and complicated things
Cause I would do the same for her too
Someone who I can be real with
Aint gotta be perfect
Because loving one another is all that matters
It's not hard to explain
So believe me when I say
That I found all of that in you

All that I hope for a friendship that's so pure
A girl I can talk to bout whatever is on my heart
A woman that needs me
That trust and believes me
That wont take my kindness as some kind of weakness
A woman who bares her soul who is willing to let go
That wants me to lead her but knows how to take control
And when I am feeling down
Cause things are going wrong
She fills me up and makes me feel strong


You are that someone who loves me
Through all my inperfections
You know my heart is filled with nothing but good intentions
You are the one that told me
Long as we got us
Nothing matters
You are the one that sees the joy through the pain
You are my light through the rain
Here and now
Girl I am saying
It's you
You're my heart
It's you
Your that someone I can truly say that I'll never find another love like you

Repeat Chorus Til End...

Monday, January 12, 2009

Hero's Have Heart

So I'm sitting here chatting with my buddy Roman, when he sends me some pics of him in Iraq. I've got the tough guy poses and his flirty ones that drive his myspace chicks crazy... but then he sent me one that made me cry. It didnt scare me, but it made me realize... he really is my hero. I love you man!

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay
~Jordan Hill: Remember me this way.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

New Years Clout

Starting a new year is supposed to be a exciting right? Well for me its complicated by my bad-luck-month of January. For as far back as I can remember something has always happened in the month of January to clout my New Years joy. My earliest memory is from losing my friend in a tragic accident in junior high.

In the many years that followed I'd lose numerous friends and loved ones all in the month of January. In fact, I left my cheating husband... in the month of January.

So here we are just 11 days into the month, and how am I doing? Well I think I pissed off Nick or something cause I'm just not feeling the love right now. I've had to calm my hysterical co-worker and explain why some people just don't want to be saved as we chat over our first DOA of the new year. I've learned that I've lost another co-worker who suffered a massive heart attack while on scene tending to persons injured in an MVA. And lastly I've learned that my daughters coach recently succumbed as well.

Can you comprehend now, why I view this month from inside a foxhole?!

Thursday, January 08, 2009


All I want is something real, that I can feel.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Ahh Choo

There's one major downfall to working with sick people. They share their germs!

So here I lay in bed for 2 days now, drugged up and miserable. I make some pretty awesome homemade chicken noodle soup, but cant make it for myself. The girls love my soup and would obviously want some, but I'm afraid of passing on my germs... ugh. I need a man!

Saturday, January 03, 2009


I feel like I've lost everything that's ever meant anything to me in life, except for my kids. That's why I've gotta make this their year. I've gotta make some changes in my life to better theirs.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Happy New Years

Yes I've made a resolution but no I dont care to share it. Believe it or not, this one really is too personal to put out there. Only my best friend knows just how much this one means to me and the kids.