Sunday, July 30, 2006

Hard not to be loyal?

I've been doing some serious thinking about Eddie the mechanic. See apparently he's been doing some thinking of me too. I cant help but feel guilty for talking with him tough. Although Ray and I are dating, he's mentioned in the beginning of our relationship that he isn't looking for a relationship right now. That he's only looking for someone to go out and have a good time. I doubt that there's anyone else in the picture. We speak all day, everyday. I think he's afraid to open his heart due to his history with his ex. So... my question is would it be ok to agree to go out with Eddie too?

I'm afraid that if I do, that given my history with men, I may fall for both and not be able to say good bye to either. I don't want to hurt anyone, but both men have great personalities and I would enjoy seeing each one. I have so many people to please and keep happy right now, would I really be able to juggle two men? Would I be able to let one go if I were to get serious with the other?
*Sigh*... this dating stuff sucks!

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